Back to work….thank goodness…..or not?

So, today I started my temp job working in the office doing administrative support for a company that makes parts for missiles, submarines, air planes and land vehicles.  I’m not proud to be working here but it’s a freakin’ job.

I’ve been looking for a job for quite a while, I’ve had 2 crappy interviews so finally I went to the temp agencies.  I knew what I was gonna find…..a job doing office work that’s just what I do and with no complete education that’s what I got.  My pay is crappy too, but I’m pretty sure that has something to do with the fact that I live in AZ.  Our pay rate is not very sufficient. And of course I didn’t finish college…..yet.

I started the job today I was half hour early so I sat in my Mom van missing my Son and Daughter sad that I couldn’t be at my Daughter’s school volunteering like I had done every Tuesday since she started school.  Yesterday morning (Monday) when I woke my Daughter up for school right away she asked me if I was going to be at her school with her, I told her no that I volunteer on Tuesdays but wouldn’t be able to anymore because I got a new job.  She said, “That’s too bad.”  I couldn’t talk for a minute and it took all I could not to cry in front of her.  That’s why I haven’t worked in over two years….I want to be available to my children and embrace them because I know I won’t get these years back.  I’ve thought about the future and how I didn’t want any regrets…..I wanted to say that I was there to volunteer in school, I went on the field trips, I helped with the fundraisers and my job was to be a Mom and I did it well.  Unfortunately, things change.

My boyfriend (both my babie’s daddy) of 7yrs can’t really support us on a pizza delivery man’s pay.  I know a lot of Mom’s work, but I just didn’t want to do it yet not until both of the kiddo’s were in school full time.  I have a 4yr old boy and a 5yr old girl.  My Daughter is in kindergarten, but only half day and our Son is still home full time.  Yes, a lot of people put their children in daycare or preschool….I didn’t want to.

After my 1st day back to work in over 2yrs I am happy to say it went well.  Luckily for me their I.T. guy couldn’t get me a computer with access to their system until the afternoon and they didn’t want me sitting around so I got to go home after being there only and 2 and a half hours, hee, hee.  I was able to get home in time to eat lunch with my family and I was very happy.  Also, it wasn’t as bad as I thought.  I will miss the time with my daughter at school, but like I said this is a temp job only one month (hopefully I get something permanent) and maybe soon I’ll get to request special days off like her Christmas Party and things like that. My kids will still NOT be in daycare….thank GOD for good friends and family 🙂

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